who do we worship?

the only god who makes sense
to my intellect
is distant
controlling
judgmental

the only god who makes sense
to my intellect
wants my success
wants to reward me
wants to grant me victory
~ but not until I've earned it

this is not my god

the living G-d,
who encounters my soul
(deeper and closer than intellect)
meets me in
divine weakness and poverty
in/with/under human suffering

the living G-d knows my soul,
opens my heart to the world
draws me out of my own pain
so I can fully meet my neighbor

the living G-d loves my soul
wounded
joyful
broken
mended, but scarred
entire
the living G-d loves my soul
deeply and completely

never ignoring part,
but embracing all of who I am