Showing posts with label nostalgia. Show all posts
Showing posts with label nostalgia. Show all posts

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

On the Eve of my daughter's graduation: in which I wax nostalgic, and pray

high school graduation
coming back to town from the 
job that I'd already started 

      (summer camp lifeguard
      isn't that the dream)

we walked in the ceremony
moving tassels from one side
to the other
after awkwardly shaking hands with 
   the principal
   the superintendent
   maybe a coach?
            (it was texas, after all)
and then we left in our cars

up and down the main street
stopping here and there
      houses, parks, stores
somehow I recognized at the time, that the
freedom from adulthood, coupled with a
responsibility to nothing but learning
   born by us middle class high school students
was a vanishing gift
   which we hadn’t fully appreciated

in the morning I left … again
off to new life at camp,
new life at college

***

now I see it from another side
and I hope her memories are good
      her foundation is solid
            her future is full of new life

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Memory of the Future

at breakfast, by myself
    eggs & toast, pen & paper
I saw my daughter
    walk by on the street
(she was, I imagine, actually
    in a middle school classroom)

the woman crossing the street
    (going to work, or on
her way home after last night)
    is already grown;
my daughter, not yet. 

                                  But
    there she was, catching the
corner of my memory
    vaulting me forward in time
as if I'd skipped a decade ~

    and now, seeing her grown
I recall those middle school years
    so long ago.

                         and so I sit
pen & paper, eggs & toast, nostalgic
    for what has yet to come to pass

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Autumn Morning as a Boy Scout


Today there's bacon in the oven – a cookie sheet full of bacon – which gives the entire kitchen and much of the house a distinct odor. We're new to this, and I'm trying to monitor the process closely, since burnt bacon seems to me to be an abomination unto the lord.

The first time I open the oven door, there's (obviously) a strong aroma that seems to slap me in the nose; an aroma which transports me back to boy scout camping trips of my youth.

Crawling out of heavy canvas tents to a lush, green autumn morning, mist rising from the creek obscuring our view of the fog settled in the hay field across the way, we woke to the smell of bacon frying in cast iron (no, we weren't backpacking) – a little slice of misunderstood heaven, wasted on youth who were without enough experience to recognize the paradise we were waking up in the middle of.

Friday, March 9, 2012

Ride Down Memory Lane, Part Two


Here's the follow-up to the previous post, remembering the bikes I've ridden … well, not every single bike I've ever ridden ~ just the ones I've been able to call mine.
But before we get to that, here's a photo of bikes from the previous post, my brother on number (3) and me on number (4).
Anyway, if you're too lazy to read the previous post, here's where we are in the timeline, dear reader. We've just moved back to Colorado, and I've been riding a 9-year-old mountain bike as a commuter as I make my way around Longmont. I rode it in to the church building, to make hospital and home visits, and to run errands. My kids fondly remember riding in a trailer behind that bike to go to the YMCA, after which we'd ride through the drive-through pizza place, slide our dinner under their seat in the trailer, and make our way back home or to the church building for meetings.

7) We didn't live in Colorado for too long before I decided I wanted to start competing participating in triathlons ~ for which I would need a road bike. I entered one race in February. But since the bike portion of that race was on a gravel surface, so I was able to ride my mountain bike.
So, about a week before my first on-road event, I picked up the cheapest road bike. Two training rides before the race, and the high-pressure narrow tires felt effortless compared to the knobby mountain bike tires I was used to by then.
I rode that bike for quite a few years, little by little getting it set up exactly like I wanted it ~ the right gearing, streamlined cockpit, etc.

Within a year after we moved to Denver (in separate incidents), the mountain bike and the road bike (along with my wife's road bike, which was originally identical to mine) were stolen out of our garage ~ I blame the drug-dealing hoarder who lived in the garage across the alley.
We got her road bike back, but my two are gone. But since by this point she was no longer interested in road cycling, I took that bike over as mine, gradually (again) setting it up just like I like it.

8) With that bike set up as a triathlon bike, I needed something for around town. I jumped on the fixie bandwagon with a bike I found for pretty cheap on craigslist. Now, at least on the city streets, I can feel like I can pretend to be a hipster.

9) Sometime along the way, my brother's old mountain bike became mine. I've ridden it in a couple of off-road triathlons, and done some (really tame) mountain biking with my kids. It's been hanging in the garage for about a year, for want of a little minor work to the front shock.

10) The bike I'm riding this week in the Fuller Center Bicycle Adventure is one I picked up for really cheap. I'd like to start going out on shop-sponsored group rides, and a triathlon bike is inappropriate for that activity ~ so I got this one set up as a road bike that will also serve well as a commuter on my 13-mile ride to the office (since it's a little far and a little hilly for the fixie).
I took it out for one last training ride. It felt great for those 30 miles, and I trust that it'll keep feeling great for the 400+ were riding this next week.


To the two of my seven readers who lasted to the end, thanks for indulging my ride down memory lane.

Let the adventure continue.

Ride Down Memory Lane, Part One


The big Fuller Center Spring Bicycle Adventure begins with orientation on Saturday, and we ride out of Nashville toward Jackson on Sunday. In anticipation of spending a few hours on a bike over the course of a week, I started thinking about all the bikes I've ridden.

1) I remember seeing a photo of me on a little (probably red) tricycle, but I don't actually remember that one. I may have had another bike or two when I was very young ~ if so, that's lost to my memory.

2) The next one I remember is a single speed, bmx-style bike with coaster brakes. I rode that one around and around on the gravel road on the property where we lived. On that bike, I learned to ride a wheelie, 'peel out', and lock the brakes in a long skid.

One day, I tried a big jump of a little hill. The jump was great. The landing, however, found me on my butt on a flat slab of rock immediately before the bike found itself on my head. Fifteen stitches later and a few weeks of healing later, I was back at it. I believe the scars are still visible.

I rode that bike from the time it fit me 'til I had extended the saddle too far out of the seat tube that it bent backward. Before long, my butt was only a few inches above the rear wheel ~ before long, it was time for a different bike.

3) I was jealous of my friends who had bikes with gears that they could change. One Christmas, I'm sure after my parents got sick of me incessantly bugging them about it, I came out to find a shiny new 10-speed ready for me to ride. I learned to shift gears, work the brakes with my hands, and manage a much higher center of gravity.

4) I rode that one around for a while, until I outgrew it ~ but I still wanted to ride. I wanted to ride like Connie Carpenter, who had just won the Olympic women's road race. My dad knew a guy who spent a lot of time cycling, and who was willing to sell us a road bike that he had rebuilt. It had good components, was in good condition, and had a very cool paint job. While most bikes are smooth and shiny, this one was textured and painted matte black. Of course, I was a growing teenager and couldn't ride that one forever.

5) I inherited the bike my dad was riding, got geared up with a Campagnolo cycling hat, padded gloves, and cleated shoes. I was big-time, riding miles up and down the country roads. I kept that bike for years, riding it regularly in high school and occasionally in college.

It was on this bike that I began to discover the wonder of the freedom of urban cycling. I rode around San Antonio some, one summer evening listening to a free Stray Cats concert for a while before riding around again on empty downtown streets.

6) I still rode that yellow bike in seminary, but discovered that it was inadequate for singletrack mountain biking. There was a bike shop about a mile from my apartment, though, that was happy to sell me a relatively inexpensive mountain bike. I took a couple months getting that bike set up exactly like I wanted it. It worked well on mountain trails, and it worked well as a commuter bike. The yellow one didn't get much use any more.

Both the mountain bike and the yellow road bike moved with me to California; but neither got much use. After a couple months, we moved from a terrible apartment to a lovely little cottage. However, there was very little room in that cottage for two bikes that didn't get used. I put the yellow bike outside, and within about 5 minutes, it made its way down the street with someone who would get more use out of it than I was at the time.

I rode the mountain bike as a commuter vehicle while we were in Eugene, OR. I rode it to the nursing home where I was a chaplain, and later I rode it to the group home where I worked between internship and my first call as a pastor. And when we moved to Longmont, CO, with only one car, I rode that bike as a commuter vehicle.

That's enough for one blog post ~ I'll put the rest of the bikes up later.

Let the adventure continue.

Monday, September 26, 2011

unmistakable aroma

sweet smell punctuated by
chemical overtones;
it's an aroma that permeates
the whole parking lot,
the entire courtyard,
and especially
the elementary school
cafeteria

all it takes is
one little plastic packet
red sauce oozing out of
that white, one-ounce
red-tomato-decorated tube
proclaiming 'ketchup'
(or, perhaps, 'catsup')
for the whole world to see

but if it's been spilled,
even a little bit,
and left to dry, un-cleaned-up
a skin forming as it seems to
shrink in size overnight
we don't need the word on the label
the aroma gives it away

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Friday Night

friday night
warm day cooling off to
a pleasant evening

driving at dusk with
windows open
radio louder than normal
down the boulevard
i'm completely present
here, now,
present in an eternal present
(you know what i mean)

until the truck in the next lane
accelerates, then downshifts
expressively
rattling eardrums, if not windows

sight, smell, feel ~
all the same then, and now
but add the sound i can't forget
muffler pipes rattling
and immediately it's
high school, friday night
up and down main street
'til it's well past curfew

i'm drawn from the
eternal present
to the
inevitable past